AArjun Varma Balaraju
Arjun Varma Balaraju
On Reading

Books that quietly changed how I think

April 28, 20266 min read
Stack of well-worn hardcover books on a wooden desk by a sunlit window

A running list of the books I keep returning to, and the small shifts each one left behind in how I look at the world.

Some books arrive with fireworks. You finish them and want to call somebody. Others slip in quietly and only later, months down the line, you notice they have rearranged the furniture of your thinking. This list is mostly the second kind.

Marilynne Robinson's Gilead taught me what it sounds like when a sentence is patient. There is no hurry in that book; the narrator has time, and the prose has time, and somehow the reader is given time as a gift. I started writing slower after I read it. Not better, necessarily — but slower, which for me is the road that sometimes leads to better.

James Baldwin's essays — especially Notes of a Native Son — changed what I think an argument can do. He never asks you to agree with him. He asks you to look. And by the time you are looking, you find that the agreement has already happened underneath the conversation.

I came to Italo Calvino's Invisible Cities late, and I am glad. If I had read it at fifteen I would have found it clever. Reading it at seventeen I found it tender — every city is really a way of asking who we are when we choose to live a certain way.

And then there are the books I have not finished and may never finish: Proust, Musil, the long ones that sit on my desk like patient teachers. They have changed how I think without my having read them through, which is, perhaps, the most generous thing a book can do.